Lacking Inspiration
This has been a crummy week. There were some highs but definitely more lows. I really wanted to write about something positive today like the newest weight loss milestone, or what’s in my makeup bag or a delicious recipe from my grandma’s recipe box I made this week but I just can’t do it. I got some bad news Monday that just punched me in the stomach + I’m just having a really hard time bouncing back. Well it’s finally Friday + soon I can check out to attend to this funk. Thankfully even though I wasn’t able to check out this week, I have some really fantastic friends by my side + could share the tumultuous feelings with.
Self care is incredibly important to me + should be to you as well. I started a daily mandatory self-care ritual back in 2014. I was blindsided by a breakup with someone I was going to marry. He left me for another woman + it ended up being one of the greatest things to ever happen to me. **Insert lyrics to Luke Pell‘s “Best Thing You’ve Ever Done” here.** But it definitely didn’t feel that way in the beginning. I figured out then just how important it is to take time for self care. So I started setting aside at least 20 minutes just for me every day. Sometimes it’s more, but it’s never less than 20. Sometimes it’s a big thing like getting my nails done or getting a massage. Sometimes it’s smaller like tossing a bath bomb in my tub + checking out for awhile. Sometimes it’s so small I just sit in my room with my lights off listening to one of a few of my favorite playlists. I turn it on + I turn my phone over. When it’s a small activity, I don’t get distractions. When it’s bigger like getting my nails done, I only respond to low key messages while I let my nail girl, Carol, get to work.
This weekend will be a pretty big self care overhaul because this week has been full of smaller self care activities, the biggest being my Sakura bath bomb from Lush last night. But I couldn’t even relax because it was Thursday so Grey’s Anatomy, Scandal + How to Get Away with Murder MESSED ME UP! I clearly internalize way too much. No wonder people call me uptight…
So here’s my weekend self care agenda:
Friday:
Tonight after a quick run to the grocery store I’m eating a cheat meal then grabbing drinks with a friend so we can have a b*tch fest about our weeks. I really just need someone who cares about me to tell me to have several seats because I’m freaking out about things I have no control over. This friend has had a long week, too, so I’m sure this will be a long b*tch fest. We’ll also be out in the suburbs so I won’t have to change out of my casual Friday look: asymmetrical salmon zip up, skinny jeans + over the knee boots. My hair is in a bun so if we were going out downtown, I’d have to tackle that mess. I did my eyebrows today. What more do you want?
Saturday:
As luck would have it, I have a massage scheduled for tomorrow morning with a stretch session. Since I internalize everything, my neck is a mess! There were two days last week I couldn’t even turn my head. So we are going to get this taken care of. Saturdays usually include lunch with mom so I’m sure we’ll head out somewhere. Then we’ll be putting me on pause to celebrate the birthdays of a couple grade school friends. Thankfully this will be a low key house party because I definitely don’t have the energy to get done up + go out.
Sunday:
Sunday my parents are meeting up with friends so I’ll be taking this opportunity to binge watch Gossip Girl from the comfort of my own couch with no distraction from mom. Mom’s go to during Gossip Girl is constantly asking me who Gossip Girl is. Seeing as I read the books + have seen the entire series about seven times (because I’m secretly Blair Waldorf), I know but won’t tell her. I mean, come on. That takes all the fun out of it. But every time I rewatch, I’m looking for on screen clues about the identity of Gossip Girl. So that’s what I want to channel my energy into. There will also be some focused journaling time to release some of the ickiness I’m feeling over some things. That night I’m planning to grab dinner with a friend I haven’t been able to see since before thanksgiving.
Hopefully by Sunday night I’ll have kicked this funk + moved on from some things + made peace with others so we can get some fresh content next week. Until then, happy Friday!
xo.
